Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Figuring it all out.

Ever since I was very young, I have always struggled with knowing what I wanted to do when I got older. I remember wanting to be a fireman, police officer, a pyschiatrist, a real estate agent, and most recently a youth pastor. It's always frustrated me that I could never figure out just exactly what I wanted to do. I felt like I was on the right path on a few things but then somehow the road lead to a dead end. I know I can do anything I set my mind to, and that when I want something... I go for it until I've achieved it. But one of my faults is that I sometimes get discouraged fairly easily and just wanna quit. In all honesty, I really am struggling with the thought of being in ministry as a career. I know ministry is always going to play a role in my life, but I know that the Lord isn't directing my life towards ministry as a career right now. There are other things he's put on my heart and mind. I am pretty nervous and definitely questioning my ability to do some of the things that are asked of me. I am putting my trust in the Lord to guide me through this time of change. I know He won't let me fail in His plan for my life. That is the one thing that helps keep me going. There are so many things in this life that I have yet to figure out, experience, and accomplish. But God has placed so many wonderful people in my life to help me along the way that I am constantly encouraged and challenged.

God has used my mother and father (and siblings) to always encourage me with wisdom and leadership to raise me in the right way.

God has used my friends who bring their thoughts and spiritual encouragement to the table to help sharpen my thinking.

God has used my wonderful girlfriend to encourage me by her strength and courage to remind me that while circumstances aren't always good, God is always good and He will see things through to the very end.

At the end of the day, I know God has provided and blessed me beyond what I deserve. He knows my plans and the things deep in my heart that I pray daily come to pass. He knows the desires of my heart and the things that I care most about. He's got all of those things in the palms of his hands and He's going to take care of me according to His will for my life. That is what keeps me going most of all.